Filled with Hope

When I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, December 15, 2007; I was instantly delivered. God would no longer sit back and let me live the way I was living any longer. Unfortunately, it took me some time to realize and understand that. I can’t say that when I became a Christian I stopped using drugs, I still didn’t love myself enough. But I knew God and before I even came to Him He started working in me, changing things about me that I had accepted as part of my personality. God didn’t deliver me by keeping me from drugs, He delivered me by revealing to me His unmeasurable love for me. He revealed to me the way He sees me and He started softening my heart towards myself and Him. God made drugs less appealing and He became more appealing, I drank from His cup and I wanted more! He showed me there was hope when I felt hopeless. God will deliver people in an instant and sometimes they accept it instantly, turn from it and run to Him; never looking back. For others it takes time and it takes work, but one day you’ll look back and be amazed at how beautiful that experience was. We seem to fall more in love with the things we have to fight hard for. You will see that God loved you when you were unworthy of His love, when you realize that…. The incredible joy that comes will be unexplainable.

I just want to tell anyone who is struggling with drugs…there is hope for you!  Even if you don’t feel it, God loves you more than you could possibly imagine. Don’t give up friends, continue to pray and seek God… He hears your cries and He feels your brokenness. I’m not claiming that it is easy but when you trust God…It gets easier. Don’t beat yourself up if you relapse, no matter how many times you might; dust yourself off, ask forgiveness, and press on- life will get better!

You are forgiven, just ask! There is hope!

For those who have loved one’s struggling with drugs; Pray for God to break them, for Him to bring them to their knees so there’s nowhere else to look but up. And I pray that He gives you the grace and the strength to trust in Him, it’s not easy to watch someone you love hit rock bottom; but I promise it will be the best thing for them. I know this because I’ve been there, and I’m so grateful for my family because as much as it hurt them to turn away from me; it was the best thing they could have ever done for my life. Because of their “tough love” I got to a very desperate place and ran to God, I had no one else to run too!